Thursday, December 24, 2009

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what we could have been, 8:22 PM.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

i know i've been selfish.
i know i've been unreasonable.
i know i've been losing my temper every now & then.
i know i've been making our life difficult & miserable.
i know i've never thought of ur feelings.
i know everyting have become meaningless now,
i know sometings wun change, and it will never change
i know i shldnt have expect much from u, bcos in the end all i get was nothing but disappointments.
i know i shldnt have avoid.
but now, avoiding everyting that i could ish wad i can do now.
bcos ...
u'll nvr understand how i felt.
u'll nvr know hw hurt i was.
u'll nvr know hw dishearted i felt.
u'll nvr know hw tired i felt.
u'll nvr know wad i want.
just lyk i'll nvr know how u felt & wad u want.

its scary when u realise the person u always tout u understand suddenly turn out to be the someone u nvr understand.

what we could have been, 10:10 AM.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

came across a blog and i saw this post.
thou its quite meaningful but its hard to achieve, isnt it?
sometings are easier said than done.

how to be a better couple - 10steps to enjoying each other better.

1) be realistic about each other.
dont try to turn ur partner into someting he or she is not. let's face it, guys - there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she had had her implants removed! give ur gal a break & understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with e help of a few facials or treatments. and ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like. chill out, love each other for what you are. there is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.

2) always talk things out.
now guys, i know tis is not ur fave pasttime or mode of resolving issues, but u know what? this works with e gals. dont make assumptions abt each other's feelings. learn to express urself better so that ur partner understands wad u're angry abt, or hurt abt, or even happy abt! when u stop toking to each other frm e heart, its the beginning of the end.

3) do stuff tgt.
mk an effort to do tings tgt. do some sports or involve yourselves in some shared activities; someting both of u enjoy or are interested in. it could be as simple as watching movies tgt, or just strolling hand-in-hand down orchard road. watch soccer w him once in a while thou the green patch on TV puts u to slp in 3secs. and guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest tat she go out w her girlfriends for 'tat sort of activities' instead. if u're spending more tyme with ur friends rather than with ur partner, its a warning that u're drifting apart.

4) meet each other halfway.
if he agrees to throw that rotten t-shirt w e 'the rock' print, u shldnt kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy. there's gotten be a little giving & taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5) show ur love.
buy her flowers or candy or perfume every now & then, even if u have been tgt for 5yrs. its wonderful to continue showing someone tat u care for him/her. cook him a special meal, paint him a valentine's day card. knit him mini-socks he cant wear, buy him a packet of milk for breakfast or pack his wardrobe for him. so he knows u can still be romantic & loving despite having been tgt for quite a while.

6) respect each other.
stop making jokes abt her hair or skin, or wadever it is u love to laugh at. ask urself if she tinks if its funny. and if he has an inferiority complex abt his height, stop ogling at tall guys and mk him feel worse. love is abt respecting each other's feelings & being sensitive to each other at all times.

7) bury e past.
stop bringing up e past. gals - dun bring up e happy tings abt u & ur ex to ur guy, it would just make him jealous or unhappy. and guys, dun talk abt e happy times that u had with ur ex or mention abt her in ur every other sentence as it would mk ur gf feel unhappy & she might tink tat u saying all this bcos u're gonna get back w ur ex or not interested in her anymore.

8) sit on ur jealousy.
all of us go thru spell of insecurity at e beginning of e relationship, but dont translate that insecurity into jealousy. if u're gonna go thru ur partner's mail & cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u now someting is wrong w u. jealousy is lyk a poison tat slowly spreads thru e relationship before finally killing it. trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

9) keep ur commitments to each other.
if ur partner is standing u up all e tyme & cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! if u're in a relationship, mk ur partner ur priority & dun disappoint them if u can help it. its realli terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. dont mk promises u cant kip! if ur partner starts to feel tat he/she is not impt enough to u, u may just lose him/her.

10) be honest.
honesty is not scowling at hw awful she looks 1st ting in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly! when we say 'be honest', we mean expressing ur feeling clearly, nt being bitingly cruel. when u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. if u cant be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? love is also abt honesty & a relationship whr no honesty exists probably isnt worth it!

what we could have been, 12:08 PM.

Thursday, September 03, 2009

todae ish my last dae working at cei..
feeling kinda sad and bu she de. ):
3months had passed, shuo kuai you bu hui hen kuai. sob.
anyway, had a wonderful dae todae (:
in the morning, i went ard the mkting department giving them the custard puff (:
den lunch, we went amk hub diao xiao er to eat good(but ex) food.
ordered set meal for 10peeps, den the bill add up to ard 270+ i tink.
hai them po fei le.
after lunch, im a busy bee again (:
going ard giving those colleagues present to thank them for the meal and guidance (:
den faster do wadever work i can clear todae de.
dao le 5plus, jiu feeling more emo le.. ):
before i left, i cam-whored alot w my colleagues (:
its was so fun..
gonna miss them and my cha siew rice riao ):

and .. hello nyp and yu pian mi fen (:

what we could have been, 10:24 PM.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

*sigh*
e no. of tings that ish happening to me/ard me ish increasing.
from family, to friends, to my future..

i just want to hope and pray that everyone ard me would be safe and sound.
and most importantly, be HAPPY ...

what we could have been, 11:58 PM.

*sigh* down with terrible eye infection since thur.
my upper and lower eyelid for my right eye are so red and swollen,
and my eyes looks so small compared to my left eye ):
im lyk an alien, a super fugly one. ):
really hate having to wear sunglasses when i go out these 2days.
hais. hope i would be able to recover on monday so that i can go back to work $_$

anyway been feeling troubled these few daes.
which path shld i realli tk?
wad do i really want? *hais*
seems lyk these 3yrs that i've spent in nyp is totally wasted bcos it's isnt helping me in deciding my future path..
and now, im hanging in the air.
neither here nor there. *cries*
almost everyone ard me have found the path they want, but im still being so indecisive, not knowing what i want.
hais. feeling v v hopeless.
i need someone to enlighten me pls!!

what we could have been, 2:04 AM.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

so much tings had happened recently..
everyting happened so fast that just when im still unprepared for the changes,there's more to be adapted.
why did tings turned out to be liddat..
why didn't tings goes smoothly..
one after another, it just happens ...
when will all these stop!
feeling v lost nw.
baobei ish nt with me. i seriously need his shoulder badly for me to cry on...

what we could have been, 12:25 PM.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

woke up with a bad headache and sore throat tdy.
guess i realli slept too much but it been ages since i slept for 12hrs
so yea, the feeling ish shiok. =X
anyway, today ish the 5th day baobei ish not ard with me. ):
hais. these few daes ish realli hen nan guo ..
but there's nth i can do. sob.
everyday there isnt anyting for me to look forward to cos i wun be able to meet up with him after work lyk i always do.
i'm not looking forward to this weekends either cos he wun be able to book out ):
hais. life ish miserable and lonely w/o him around. )':
but thankfully, i've gt my friends and family w me.
thanks for all the encouragements and supports. i appreciate that yea.
anyway, did nth much after baobei enlisted on 7july except that i catch up with my clinques on tuesday and went out w sis on friday (:

6th july 2oo9 - monday

bb came over to my place in the morning den after slacking we went out for movie and lunch.

finally we watched transformer @ cathay. (:

slacked ard town area and had fish n co for dinner since bb ish craving for it =D

after that settled down at cathay again to tk pics before we went home ):

so bu she de to part with him, but cant help it ...

7th july 2oo9 - tuesday

met up with sam, net, sh, mc and jason in town for dinner after work.
dine-in @ heeren shokudo.
all the japanese foods are so yummy delicious. =D
we ordered few dishes and shared among ourselves.
v filling oso. price quite affordable, each pax ard 20bucks. heex
headed home early due to the outbreak of my topid hong mo..
suddenly became worst so rushed back to bishan to see doc ):
grr. digusting ..

1oth july 2oo9 - friday

went amk hub for dinner with my sister and niece.

initially wanted to settled down for dessert @ MOF but in the end we went to another dessert shop beside MOF for ice-cream waffles.

the ice-cream waffles are quite yummy delicious.

also tried the waffles bites with cinnamon + honey.

but the service there super slow.

we waited for quite long before our desserts are served when there isnt any crowd. -_-

what we could have been, 1:33 AM.